Six Years and a Baby
Wow, I cannot believe Cole and I have been married for six years already. This Sunday marks our 6th wedding anniversary! On my wedding day I remember my Grandma telling me life will fly by and she was right. It's gone by so fast and I wish it would just slow down a bit. I don't see that happening anytime soon since we're expecting our first kiddo in January. Life is only going to get crazier, busier and go by faster. It's why I'm trying so hard to find the right balance between actually living my life instead of just working through it. I want more weekends to spend with this man and with our little one. Never in a millions would I have pictured myself thinking about pushing a stroller down a sidewalk as we head to the park or laying a blanket out in the backyard and doing the airplane with our little one. Never, but it's happening and those thoughts are getting stronger and stronger as my little bump grows. If you would have asked us a year ago we would have said we're not having kids and don't see any plans to have them in the near future. Many people are wondering why we changed our minds or if this baby was an accident, haha! Nope, it was totally planned. It just happened a lot quicker than we thought it would. After only a month of trying I was pregnant! I guess this was a plan that was certainly meant to be and I completely believe that it was. I'm happy and incredibly grateful it happened as quickly as it did because I do think I would have change my mind and pushed these feelings off out of fear and ignorance. I'll be the first to admit I'm a pretty selfish person and even though I'm excited to be mom... I'm still completely terrified.
Cole and I are both very independent people and probably would be perfectly happy not having kids. We love to travel and do our own thing whenever we want. However, the more we thought about our future and growing older together, the idea of building a family of our own kept coming up. For me it was a feeling that started off really small (I mean really, really small) and it would pop up every six months or so. I could ignore it for awhile and tell myself that it's not what I really want, but eventually it started coming up more and more. So last year we had the "talk" and decided to take the plunge into the unknown world of parenting.
We've had six years to build our relationship, travel together and really enjoy each other before we even started talking about kiddos and I wouldn't change that. These past six years we've built a solid foundation for our family that we're both very proud of. It hasn't always been easy and I know there are still several bumps ahead of us (and just as many diapers), but we're in this together forever and always. He's my everything and I cannot wait to raise our son with him.